So D has officially been gone for 17 days. I haven't allowed myself much time to really process the fact that he is really gone, but obviously it's not that easy to keep off my mind. The past few days have really been tough for me and I'd be lying if I said I haven't been tempted to just take all of my money and run away to North Carolina right now.
I have seemed to get into a disagreement with one of my closest friends. I honestly had no idea how she was feeling, and just knew that the past few months she has really began to make me feel like everything I have done is wrong in one way or another. Either way, Wednesday we got into a heated "discussion" and I haven't talked to her since. I feel really lost without her, but really don't feel like I was in the wrong. She accused me of not being there for her, and when I am there having it feel like a chore. That's not how it is at all, but with my waitressing job, school work (which I was beginning to fall behind in), and then this new relationship with D, I just haven't had as much free time as I used to. I'm really struggling with all of this because I wish I could tell her about the plans that me D have made, but quite honestly, I don't think she would approve.
It's times like this that I really miss D. I wish he was here to comfort me in person. I guess I shouldn't complain too much, because I still get to talk to him on a daily basis. It does amaze me how much he can make me feel better even if he is 15 hours away. I truly am blessed to have him in my life.
Getting a little closer every minute. Until I get to see him again... I'll keep counting the days away.
M
I have seemed to get into a disagreement with one of my closest friends. I honestly had no idea how she was feeling, and just knew that the past few months she has really began to make me feel like everything I have done is wrong in one way or another. Either way, Wednesday we got into a heated "discussion" and I haven't talked to her since. I feel really lost without her, but really don't feel like I was in the wrong. She accused me of not being there for her, and when I am there having it feel like a chore. That's not how it is at all, but with my waitressing job, school work (which I was beginning to fall behind in), and then this new relationship with D, I just haven't had as much free time as I used to. I'm really struggling with all of this because I wish I could tell her about the plans that me D have made, but quite honestly, I don't think she would approve.
It's times like this that I really miss D. I wish he was here to comfort me in person. I guess I shouldn't complain too much, because I still get to talk to him on a daily basis. It does amaze me how much he can make me feel better even if he is 15 hours away. I truly am blessed to have him in my life.
Getting a little closer every minute. Until I get to see him again... I'll keep counting the days away.
M
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